Romantic love always gives me chills, in a good way. I, too, wonder what it feels like to be kissed free of all worries, to be hugged in a way that makes me forget every burden I carry, and to be unlocked with a key that is his quiet presence.
I have never had a first love, nor do I long for one. Yet, I think it would be nice to experience it. I don’t ache for love, but if I ever find it, I will cherish and protect it.
I am not entirely sure if I have the capacity to endure everything. At times, I am good at enduring, but other times, I struggle, especially when my partner is at fault. I always make sure people realize their mistakes, and I would do the same for him, not to make him feel bad, but because I wouldn’t want him to carry his wrongdoings to his last breath.
I want him to realize his mistakes while he is healthy, to change for the better so that he never has to live with regret. Regret is a painful thing, one that lingers, one that hurts deeply. That is why I know when to endure and when to speak up.
But one thing I am sure of is that I will support him. I believe that supporting each other and overcoming obstacles together is a key part of love. This kind of love makes our hearts proud and brings genuine smiles to our faces.
Likewise, I don’t expect to be his first love. He may have had past relationships that ended due to certain circumstances. Loving again is never easy, and if he chooses to love me, I don’t want to make him relive past pain.
It’s not because I want to prove that I am some kind of angel, but because I understand that it’s unfair to hurt someone over a past that can no longer be changed. Moving on to a new relationship is not easy, and during that phase, he may struggle with self-love. He may forget how to love himself, and during that time, I want to support him and remind him that he must love himself first before he pours his love into me.
I believe that to love someone properly, you must first love yourself. To me, the first step in love is self-love. You cannot offer something to another person in a meaningful way if you don’t even know how to give it to yourself.
I also want to experience the kind of romance people talk about, kissing and hugging, because these, too, are expressions of love, moments where couples pour their emotions into their touch. But more than that, I hope that my future partner and I will share a romantic life built on respect, love, and care.
Our kiss should dissolve all worries and sadness. Our hugs should convey unwavering support through every chaos and challenge that surrounds us. Our hands intertwined should remind us that we are never alone.
The eye contact we share should speak unspoken words of reassurance. Even during fights, communication should never leave us, because I believe communication is the key to solving every problem.
I want us to communicate even in our moments of conflict, where our eyes convey love, reminding us why we chose each other in the first place.
When love is filled with romance, it feels right. All that truly matters is that love remains within the romance.
There is something beautiful about being unlocked in a quiet, intimate way, with love and protection. A warm kiss on the forehead, a soft brush of lips against lips, these are simple yet profound gestures that carry the weight of love itself.
The Momma Clan 
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